We are both lonely people. You opened up to me and we realized how much we have in common. You told me your life story. I never realized how much you’re hurting, you never realized how much I cared and how patient I am. We went inside and all I remember is you kissing me. I liked it, you liked it, and we did it some more. We laid there and you said you could possibly be falling for me but I knew this wasn’t true. We kissed some more but then you had to go. That was Saturday. Yesterday (Monday) you came back but not for me, you were too scared to see me but I couldn’t let you leave without seeing you. Once again we talked and I just stared into your beautiful blue eyes. You told me that I’m too young for you, this I already knew. You told me, you didn’t love me I knew this too. Surprisingly none of those words hurt. And, yet we regret nothing. I got into your car and I laid in your arms like I did before. It was warm and familiar. No one can see the good that I see in you. We kissed twice, then once more. I knew that was the last time. The last kiss from my first. You walked me to my door and there we just hugged, it felt better than the kiss. I don’t know when I’ll see you again or if I ever will but you’ll  always be in my heart and my head because you were my first kiss. You taught me what it felt like to be kissed. Without you knowing it you also taught me that I’m not ready to be in a relationship. You opened my eyes. You told me to be patient because that one guy will come around one day. I told you I’ve always have been patient and I always will be. I was patient with you and one of the best things came out of my patience. I don’t love you in that way, but in the way where I really do truly care. Remember this and keep me dear in your heart please. Think of me whenever you think of doing something stupid, something you will regret. Goodbye my first kiss and Thank you for teaching me so much.<3

lonelyhufflepuff:

You just don’t get it. Without me, you’ll be fine. But what about me? I won’t be okay without you. You’ll find someone new. I have no one.

jocelynl456:

I won’t be some chick you can just use for your own personal game. I’m tired of feeling confused about everything that’s going on here. I’m tired of waiting for you to sweep me off my feet and finally admit that I’ve been the one for you because in reality I’m not. I’m tired of letting myself get attached to someone so much that it hurts to let go of the feeling of actually being loved. It’s not gonna happen and I have to be strong and let myself move on. It sounds so stupid because we were never in a relationship but it felt like it. I’m not saying I’m gonna forget you entirely but I have to have some space now. We’re friends and we will always be friends. I’ll be there for you but I won’t feel sorry for you. I’ll tell you how it is. I’m gonna get over this stupid crush and live better knowing that I have detached myself from you and I’m ready to find that person who’s meant to be for me. And if in fact you are that person, we’ll find our way back to each other. But for now, goodbye old love.

Hello, Freedom.

nvr2late:

One good thing has come out of this - 
You’ve finally realized that your daughter is gone.

That girl you thought you knew -
The wall flower, the perfect Christian, the innocent one,
the cowed and scared girl, angry at the world…
She’s gone.

Somewhere amidst the lies and the screams,
the fists and the betrayal, you destroyed her. 
That girl is nothing but a memory,
and her blood is on your hands.  

But someone else rose out of the turmoil.
Someone smarter and stronger.
Cynical and bitter maybe,
but strong enough to survive you.

I’m not who you think I am.
I never was. 
I care so much about the people around me,
and I will never believe your lies or back down again.  

All you can see is a shell. 
Someone of your own inventions,
who is angry and hateful and stupid.
But I am not that girl.

And now you see that you’ve even lost her.  

(Source: ellackadaisical)